of farewells and goodbyes

if there’s something i believe,
farewells and goodbyes
are only temporary breaks
to allow time to miss each other
and meet again someday soon =)

of friends i’ve found
these friends are true
of friends i’ve lost over time and distance
these friends are forever

i’d be missing you!
but we shall keep in touch by email, we shall!

glad to have met you this time gurl!
see you again soon!

i hate saying goodbye to you
cause i don’t know
when id see you again

Party Like A Rock Star

...was the theme of my 21st =)

i’ll let the pictures do the talking okay? =)

my theme colors were purple black n silver =)

people came from everywhere!
relatives and friends from everywhere
i was truly honored!

 
Surprises!
congrats to Bryan & Alithea on their engagement! =)

entertainment that night was great!
special thanks to the band (Amelia, Dean & Alithea)
was sweet of you all to play my favorite songs =)
and special thanks to DJ Roshen who spun superb tracks!
and especially thanks to my brother who emceed =)
(he purposely added in a few embarrassing stories too..sigh)

special thanks to all those who made it possible:
my parents for even letting me have a party in the first place
U. Hedley for tolerating my whines and worries for the party
A.Margaret & Karen & all the staff for the wonderful food & drinks
U. Jerry? for helping out with the balloons
A.Hazel for the endless phone calls for my deco
Asha for helping me with the stones
Kevin, Brennan, Bryan, Farid & everyone else who took pictures that night- Much appreciated!
Barry, Stacey, & George for fixing me up with a Flaming =P

so yea,
plenty of people
plenty of food
plenty of drinks (on a budget though)
plenty of dancing
and plenty of fun! =)

i hope everyone who attended had fun
cause i sure did =)
thanks for rocking it out that night!
peace out rock stars!

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test for twitter update =)
since i just linked my blog to my twitter =)

memories of last night…

4 – 2 + 1 – 1 + 1 + 1 = Awesomeness + Quality Time!

thanks girls for the awesome time last night!
definitely a sleepover overdue…

 
the US =)

we missed you Karen!

need another sleepover session
for a whole confessional “HYE/IHN” moment
between us girls =)
(i think its time the truth came out..hahaha)

you made my night =)
thanks for the chance

this should be my mission statement...

Don't tell him you love him. You'll become more of a bother than everyone else. You don't want that. To have both of you happy, you just need a healthy attitude. Keep being the quiet kid who pays attention to him and smiles at him and comforts him, but he's made a difference to you. Don't ask for more - it'll just ruin everything. Don't seek him out - you may have self-worth issues, but this time you are right about what he thinks of you. Be thankful you met him, grieve as you need to, and expect better days that will indeed come. If you have a little faith all will be fine.

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Sabo Love Much? Very! =)

pictures tell no lies =P

bragging rights =)

heel (kill) me with new heights =)

yes, i finally got my killer heels! YAY!
though not the ones i wanted,
but awesomeness nonetheless!

cost me an entire month’s pay! lol
but worth every cent!
comfort and balance the whole time =)
(a definite one time and never again splurge)

needless to say,
i tower over my mum and dad now =)
but only reach the same height as my brother =(

do i intimidate you with the new height? =P

Sweet Child of Mine

one of my daughter’s First Holy Communion =)

watch the slideshow for a few pictures of her…

Kaylyn's First Holy Communion =)

sneak previews =)

i know i’ve been backdated on my posts =P

still catching up with the rush of the adrenaline
of all thats been goin on

sneak preview of whats to come/blogged about:

 

 

  

and yes, a few reviews on a song, a movie, and a book =)

soon to come =) MWAH!

i hope things work out okay between us,
even if its not how i dreamt of it =)

words left unsaid…are better off unsaid.

Dear You,

hi! yes, this is me being such a coward. silly and ironic, ain’t it? how i dare tell the world how i feel about you but i cant tell you. don’t worry, your identity is anonymous. and i have a feeling you stop by my blog, do you? well, i wouldn’t know cause you wouldn’t say. but it doesn’t matter anyway, what difference would it make right?

I'm writing this, to stop me from contacting you. id so love to pick up my phone, call you or even message you, heck maybe even email you..just to say hi and tell you have a good day and give you the reminder like i always do. just to hear your voice. but i know you wouldn’t want that (i heard the edge in your voice, I'm sorry i disturbed you, i should’ve known better).

gosh, do you know how silly i feel right now? i have never been so hung up over someone before. it doesn't make sense! i mean, i can always forget you, cant i? why is it so hard this time? you know what's even sillier? the fact that you know how i feel (yes, i know you know, i just don’t say it), and act all nonchalant about it, when i’m trying my very best not to let it show how i feel, just so i won’t make you feel awkward about things. how can i be more like you? i mean, i know you have no feelings for me, i totally get that. i just wish i knew how to be more cool and collected about things, the way you do it.

i know im not being myself around you, i don’t know if you know. the little tendencies i have, to hold your hand, hold you close, tell you sweet stuff, compliment you, grin especially wide, talk personal stuff with you; i suppress it all in, cause i know i can’t be that way. yet, i be the other way, which is SO not good either..sigh..i guess, i just don’t want you to see how vulnerable i actually am.

anyway, don’t worry, i’ll try my best to keep my distance for awhile, i know that’s what you want, despite you telling me otherwise. wish me luck okay? that i don’t ruin this again… you mean too much to me to lose.. so yes, i may have ruined a whole lot of things, but this is something i wouldn’t risk ruining.

good night =)

Love,
Me

dead within five seconds

so much for happiness
within five seconds
five fucking seconds
i managed to get a slap right across my face
stung like hell
stabbed repeatedly in my heart
just mere simple words
that was all that it took
to break my heart
and make me cry
and make me feel utterly horrible about myself
i feel so stupid!
so stupid for wishing
so stupid for even believing in hope
i should’ve known better
gosh, fuck you la Mandy! Fuck You!
i fucking hate you, you bloody screwup!
you dont fucking deserve anything!

am i dreaming? or is this for real?

you spoke to me after so long
(i thought that was that, the closure i sought)

we actually spent time talking more after
(i couldn’t be happier)

the movies alone with you
(seemed so surreal, was i dreaming?)

you asked me to dance too??
(too good to be true)

 

i don’t understand you, i really don’t.
the more i try to, the more i don’t.
you still make my heart race
still put me in a daze
i wish i could ask for more
but you’ve given me more than i dreamt for
though not exactly what i wished
but definitely something i wouldn’t have missed
so, thank you for making my day
my the one who got away

i hope tonight works out.

of empty words and promises

will you really?
somehow, i don’t think so.

Jesus Committed A Crime

Scene: PD La Salle Bungalow
Date: 29-31 August 2009
Crime: RYM Camp was Da Bomb!
Prime Suspect: Father Danny
Mastermind: Jesus
Witnesses: Everyone who was there!

my main reasons for going:

1. Cause my girlfriends were going =)
2. I wanted and needed to go for confession (after3years)

my initial thoughts:

1. its going to be just another youth camp
2. id probably fall asleep in sessions
3. id hardly mix around
4. id probably just go with the flow

why the camp was superb:

1. perfect timing! (didn't clash with my classes or assignments plus Merdeka weekend!)
2. Father Danny taught religion in a way that didn't seem preachy at all that i could actually understand and enjoy and follow
3. everyone was so friendly and at ease with each other! (people actually talked to me =) )
4. the RYM Core team was so open and approachable too =)
5. i had closure in so many ways that i felt at peace with myself

for all these reasons and more
i lift it up to the Lord
and give thanks!
(i hope i keep up this high in the Lord! =( )

Thanks to everyone who made it great!
Glad to have found new friends too! =)

thanks for what you did
it meant the world to me
you gave me hope in Him again