shot by love

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It Makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, the one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life..you give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should just be friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in your imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
- Neil Gaiman :taken from thinkexist.com

to sum up how i feel about that quote is another quote:

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”
- also taken from thinkexist.com

don’t get me wrong, i don’t hate love, i love love. in fact, i love loving and to be loved in return. but im just on the wrong end of love right now. the simplest of things seem so overwhelming these days. its real funny how just one person, just one, is all it takes to turn your whole life upside down. to make your life a huge paradox where the person makes you both laugh and cry, warm and cold, attentive and ignorant. i didn’t plan on it happening this way, yet it did, and now im stuck, having trouble getting out of this, all of which is happening while the person is on the outside looking in. sigh.

be patient with me, kay?
i really am trying to get over you
its just taking longer than i hoped for.

l word changed my life!

i have just finished l word season 6
cried my eyes out to the last episode
felt every emotion in my system on overload

after journeying with these wonderful girls
all throughout six seasons
i cannot help but pay tribute

i swear,
l word changed my life.
i connected to each one of them in so many ways more than one, at so many different times of my life. they’ve taught me values about life, friendship, love, myself. taught me to cherish my own life even more and to appreciate all those around me wholeheartedly. as their characters grew through six seasons, i grew with them, coming out as a better person than i started off before the series.
it saddens me that it has already finished, but overall, i think they’ve wrapped it up good. the last episode is definitely the best episode ever. and Jenny has captured my heart, i don’t care how screwed up she may be, she’s wonderful! -just goes to show that nobody’s perfect…

talking, laughing, loved, breathing, party, fucking, crying, drinking, running, winning, losing, shiring, kissing, thinking, dreaming.
-this is certainly the way to live and love!

so cheers to L word!
RIP Jennifer Schecter, you’d forever be in our hearts.

still waiting for my imperfect half

million reasons why not

 

i fancy boy bands, but hate heavy metal
i love reading, but hate law novels
i love Chicken Soup for The Soul
i hate spoofs, but love sappy romances
im not athletic
i love shopping
i love my phone & i love messaging
i love my hair, and i love washing it
i hate bathing more than necessary
i love statement tees
i love my sky-high heels
i love bright colors
i love painting my nails multi-colored
i would want a tattoo
i still have curfews
im more shy than outgoing
i love Bombay Sapphire gin
i don’t go to the movies alone, but i love watching movies alone
i love having multiple pairs of jeans
i don’t like having breakfast
i take my medication when i must
i don’t like mints
i like Miley Cyrus, i don’t like rap
i love musicals and plays

im certainly not your average girly girl
i appreciate chivalry with a tinge of feminist traits

for all these reasons and more
i should be getting over it already
yet its SO DARN hard! damnit!

not any easier…

*RAWR!*

i wanna wanna wanna touch you
you wanna touch me too
everyday but all i have is time
make me your perfect crime

missing you…

women who long, love, lust

am currently hooked on season 6 of lword! =)

i, liken myself to Jenny
according to wiki,
she’s sweet, determined, but complex and eccentric
she is loyal to her friends and strong minded
her weaknesses are emotionally fragile, too honest
a deep fear that she’s one who doesn't deserve to be happy
she can be very sweet, but can also be cold
she know her way around things
can be quite a whiner

looking at what wiki said about my favorite, Shane
i might feel like im like her too
cause she’s the quiet,relaxed, loyal, kind one
she’s always on the look out for other people
but has her self-destructive traits too
not really into relationships but would like one
trouble saying no to people
understands monogamy but needs alone time too
but then again, i dont have her cool confidence or her style

im a girly girl! =)
which character do you think im like? =P

Cherie-Shane in season 3 & Jenny-Nikki in season 6 rocks! =P

im alice when it comes to you…

perfect for you…

thanks to Karen for intro =)

You & I by Michael Carreon (ft. Kat Badar & Jesse Barrera)

Verse 1:
I've tried to avoid this day for so long but it's finally here
Cause you and I used to be something special
And love and happiness was all we had for a couple of years
And then one day we decided to go our separate ways
Memories began to fade away

Pre-chorus:
but tonight
It's gonna be rough
cause tonight
You and I are gonna be
At the same place
At the same time
Why'd we have to have the same friends
You and I
I don't want you to think I miss you
Or that I hate you
I'm just tryna get through tonight

Chorus:
What am I supposed to say
So long since I've seen your face
Do you wanna kiss me
Or tell me you miss me
Or that you want me to leave
What am I supposed to do
Ain't nobody know the truth
But I'm not gonna waste my time
and try to tell you

Verse 2:
I never thought that you and I could ever be just friends
And what we had was nothing special
Love and happiness is what we'll never have
Honestly I don't think it was meant to be this bad

Pre-chorus:

Chorus:

i miss you.
i wish things were easier.

i will survive!

i almost wrote a sappy note
pathetically desperately pining over you
i guess that night was the final straw
i heard it all, what you said, what you did
i broke down terribly-puffy eyes and all

but guess what?
i think im better off
as much as i love you
why bother waiting around
and showing you how much i care
when you dont feel the same way?

its gonna be hard getting over you
but i promise you this
i will try my very best
i hope this works out for you
you won’t hear from me for awhile
i bet you’re more than happy about that

funny how you did nothing
to have caused this
i dont blame you
i brought this upon myself
i fell in love with the wrong one
but i will not lose you as a friend
take care my cloudy buddy =P

i’ll miss you.