if she didnt message you for a day
wonder if you’d realize?
would you even care?

if you didnt see her in two weeks
wonder what you’d think?
would you even notice?

if you saw her with another
wonder what you’d feel?
would you even bother?

if she said its alright
wonder if you’d believe her?
would you tell the difference?

if she said she loved you
wonder if you’d hear her?
would you just ignore?

if she left the world tomorrow
wonder if you’d miss her?
would you even know?

look at her
she smiles at you
in her heart
she breaks in two
hold her hand
and make it true
of her wish
she asked of you
valentine
oh take the cue!

ps: you’re the “world”..my world at least.

this is stupid!
i should be getting over you by now!
damnit!
not getting more entangled!

Valentine’s day is coming up

i dont ask for much
i dont want no flowers
no candy no chocolates
no fancy candlelight dinner
no big surprise
no expensive gifts

all i really want
truly deep down
is only for you
to ask me just one question:

WOULD YOU BE MY VALENTINE?

just that question
for me to reply
yes, thank you for making my day
would be the sweetest you could do for me
i expect nothing else but that question
but hey, its you we’re talking about
this would be impossible

so thank you anyway
for inspiring me to write this post
this is another hope to be dashed

just ask me that, wont you? =(

in the smallest corner of my heart
i believe in a love so true
despite all I've seen and been through
its there in the world, somewhere
someone waiting to be found there
it’ll be just like magic
when you catch my breath and heartbeat
we’d hug for the longest time
and kiss me just the same
we’d talk for hours on the phone
walk hand-in-hand together
we’d run under the rain
and argue over the silliest things
we’d surprise each other with simple things
of hellogoodbyes messages
and imissyous and thinkingofyous too
it’ll be a dream come true
to get that chance of saying
hey baby, i love you.

hey perfect stranger,
i’ll be seeing you someday
- you just wait and see!
you’d be falling head over heels in love with me =)

if only you werent on my mind
when i wrote this post

i used to think
that even if just the smallest bit
just the slightest of hope
i would hang onto it
for its certainly better
to have something
even if its tiny
than to have none at all

but now, i realize
its worse this way
you’re stuck in between
with no where to go
your feet rooted to the ground
still hanging onto the impossible
while seeking escape into the possible
you want to let go
yet you cling on for hope

what am i to do?

just for once, hold me tight, close to you, in your arms, dont let me go. hold my hand, hear my heart, breathe me in, my everything.
touch not my body, but touch my heart.
kiss not my lips, but kiss my mind.
speak to me, but in silence.
nothing more that just that.
let us fall asleep like that, and wake up to the morning light.

love me like that
and i’ll love you back.

blatant truths you’d never tell me, but i wish you would:

1. you dont want to talk to me, and that “running out of credit” was just an excuse
2. you dont want to see me, and that “see you soon” was just a courtesy move
3. you see me but you wAlk the other direction
4. you wish we didnt have the same social scene sometimes
5. you wish id turn down invitations to whatever
6. you wish you didnt have to acknowledge me in a social crowd
7. “kind” is just another word for “pathetic losEr who’s too hung up over me”
8. meeting me “there” is just to appease my so-called imagination
9. informing me of places to go are just mere recommendations, not actual inVitations
10. all your outta the blues messages, calls and meEt ups with me were just to get it over and done with so i wont bug you about contacting me anymore for awhile
11. telling me that you didnt bother about my reminders
12. that stopping by to see me was just another ticK off your to-do list and you couldn’t wait to get away
13. that the times you message  me at odd hours, you were really hoping i wouldnt reply
14. that i suck at daNcing, sports and l4d = i aint your type
15. you know ily but you’re just being “nice & chilvarous” so as to not hurt my feelings

16. that its my fault we got messed up
cause i unleashed the unknown within you =(

gossip we dont stop
heart2heart spills too
shopping we go crazy
camwhoring made easy
cheeky sex talks dont escape us
fashion critiques are we
through thick and thin
we make it through
from hatred before
inseparable now

she doesnt give a damn
talks me down good
cares for me like no other
mummys me, im her baby
scolds me when im wrong
takes pride where due
this girl knows me
inside and out
im blessed to have her

she’s gorgeous
with a big golden heart
fearless with her words
fashion queen extraordinaire
don’t judge a book by its cover
(dont know why people do =( )
cause she’s the sweetest you’ll ever find

the diva herself –Ms.Ashwini Nair =)

Chayang,
I know i dont appreciate you enough. i just want to say Thank you for always being there for me, for listening to my rants and raves when you really dont want to and though it’ll end up upsetting you. i’m sorry if i ever did you wrong or hurt you in any way, please know its never my intention. i am TOO blessed and grateful to God for the presence of someone like you to have touched my life with your friendship and changed it for the better! =)

I luv you to bits!

so here’s to:
Many more years of friendship!
many more camwhoring sessions!
many more shopping mall attacks!

BFF Forever!

ps: the “boyfriend” better start appreciating a good thing!