Conservative? Not.

(something i had in my drafts...hmm, cant even remember what it was about that riled me up. Oh well, enjoy)

I can sense how it travels along my skin
Violating every inch of my body
I can feel my goosebumps prick the back of my neck
The chill running down my spine
All too familiar
The disgust coursing through my veins
Contempt seeping out of my pores

The inner being on alert
The caged beast awoken
It primes itself ready and poised
Neck craned strategically
So never to lose sight
Ever ready to play the role

Like what you see huh?
Too bad you cant get more than that
So keep your damn spies to yourself
Especially when you're already taken
Or keep the damn judgements out of your eyes
Cause i wear what i like

If its appreciation or concern,
I welcome them freely
But if I've suddenly become the butcher's meat
Such good feast for a hungry man's eyes
Go F yourself!
I've had enough in the past to last me a lifetime

And hell no, my dressing should not provoke you to stare
Didn't you learn to respect women? Guess not.
Perhaps I should punch you in the face
For provoking me with your stupidity

Be careful what you wish for

Be careful what you wish for
someone once told me
for wishes might come true and more
in ways I’d never foresee

Whoever said that was a genius
for it did indeed come to be
no longer made oblivious
toppled all upon me

Escaping in books aplenty
Made myself a world of fantasy
Created scenarios to my fancy
Dreamt of places of ecstasy

Everything came true
But nothing was free
Everyone wasn’t you
All had a catch, a fee

He who cooked, reeked
He who sexed, used
He who sang, clingy
He whose riches, pompous
He who cared, boring
He who adored, desperate
He whose looks, attitude
He who charmed, perved
He who seemed perfect, ran

So I’ve concluded
Wishes are traps
Don’t be deluded
Lies in fancy wraps

So no matter the effort
Worthless without the spark
Save yourself the exert
Give up, don’t give a fuck

The higher the wall
Or the lower the expectation
Either way, we’ll fall
Alone in desolation

I cannot pretend anymore
I’m tired of the façade
Get out of the door
Save yourself and your heart
Don’t look back to before
Walk away, be smart
I’m not the girl to adore
So take a hike, depart.

Random Opposites

In the dark of the moonlight

On a bright starry night

You're too far to hold tight

Miss you less with all my might 

Amusing things that'll make me sad

Happy things that'll make me mad

All the good things to spoil me bad

I'm so boring that I'm rad 

Huge issues made so small

Small beings seem so tall

The illusion of a moving wall

No one there to hear my call

Random words match in rhyme

Captured still, the passing time 

Never yours, always mine

Going mad, faking fine 

Jump off to sleep

Shallow dreams of emotions so deep

May you laugh until you weep

Until you snooze the morning beep

Silly chants so serious

Sweet words so devious 

Ignorance so obvious

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*Note: Really random stuff I came up with while waiting for my nails to dry 😂