I am entirely disgruntled at laughter. Maybe I've lost my ability to laugh or maybe I'm just going through one of my down phases. Or maybe there's nothing worth laughing about.
I dislike it with a vengeance cause people misuse it. Uncomfortable? Laugh. Made a mistake? Laugh. Guilty? Laugh. Watching a really horrible gore scene? Laugh. Softening the blow of something harsh? Laugh. Trying to poke fun without being obvious? Laugh. Lost for words? Laugh. Awkward? Laugh.
There's nothing funny about the situations above at all. Don't you dare use coping mechanism as an excuse. Laughter just belittles everything and that sucks. It's overused for all the wrong reasons that it's brought out an adverse effect on me, cause now I just wanna grimace at every laughter I hear. Everytime I smile or laugh now, it really feels plastic or plastered on or hollow even. Hypocritical of me? Aren't we all? Tsk.
So maybe it's just me. Maybe I have underlying reasons to be infuriated by it all. Maybe I'm just jealous. Why can't I feel the overwhelming happiness nowadays? Why do my smiles feel forced? Why can't my laughter come rumbling from deep within me?
Cause right now, I laugh because it's the only appropriate response. I laugh cause it's my obligation. I laugh because I have to. I laugh so as to not offend the other. I laugh so much that I feel like crying. I wish it was cause it tickled me so much to the point of tears. But it's really cause it hurts to laugh. It pains me to laugh.
Pfft, who am I to be selfish & sulk right? So here you go. *grins* (for your sake & mine, let's pretend I meant that).
Friday, August 29, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
Judge Hypocrite
The thoughts that run through my mind when scrolling through Social Media feeds (don't judge me):
1. How is it that she's much heftier than me & yet she's got herself a boyfriend??
2. She's nice and all, but she's just NOT a looker. Yet she's keeping fit with Zumba, Body Combat & whatnot? She's even wearing makeup??
3. She's got such a bitchy attitude & yet she managed to get someone who's willing to tolerate her??
4. She's so bratty & yet she's lavished with riches aplenty??
5. She's really not all that much to shout about & yet she's got a gazillion likes on an unedited pic??
6. She's got such an "ancient" style & yet she's some big shot in a company now??
What the heck is wrong with the world?? I've got so much to offer! I'm gorgeous! I'm "humble". I speak well, with pun to boot. I know the difference between cheap fashion and classy fashion. So why are they getting all the attention and not me??
Ironic isn't it? How one asks others to not judge them, yet look down on everybody else. Why would someone seek high maintenance poison when they can be much happier with humble simplicity? How can one be positive about things and attract positivity, when all one exudes is negativity. There's so much more to looks & material possessions.
It is true when they say love is blind. It is not blind infatuation/affection that you choose to completely ignore or disregard the cons of a person. Rather, it is the overwhelming love that engulfs you, that you instead accept the cons and flaws of a person that it's not even an issue to begin with at all. You end up loving the person selflessly and wholeheartedly that you rejoice in the pros & accept or challenge the cons to be transformed into pros.
Therefore, it is also true about "The Secret". To be loved, you must first love. To attract good things and positivity, you must first be positive and do good deeds. To have someone date you, you must first change to be someone you would be willing to date yourself. Remember karma; do good & good will be done unto you, do harm & harm will in turn come upon you.
So before you pick the speck outta your neighbor's eye, pick the log outta your own eye first. Learn to love yourself first and foremost, before you attempt to love anyone else or before you allow anyone else to love you. After all, how would you know what love is if you haven't discovered it for yourself. Confidence is the key. Have Faith. Let go & let God.
1. How is it that she's much heftier than me & yet she's got herself a boyfriend??
2. She's nice and all, but she's just NOT a looker. Yet she's keeping fit with Zumba, Body Combat & whatnot? She's even wearing makeup??
3. She's got such a bitchy attitude & yet she managed to get someone who's willing to tolerate her??
4. She's so bratty & yet she's lavished with riches aplenty??
5. She's really not all that much to shout about & yet she's got a gazillion likes on an unedited pic??
6. She's got such an "ancient" style & yet she's some big shot in a company now??
What the heck is wrong with the world?? I've got so much to offer! I'm gorgeous! I'm "humble". I speak well, with pun to boot. I know the difference between cheap fashion and classy fashion. So why are they getting all the attention and not me??
Ironic isn't it? How one asks others to not judge them, yet look down on everybody else. Why would someone seek high maintenance poison when they can be much happier with humble simplicity? How can one be positive about things and attract positivity, when all one exudes is negativity. There's so much more to looks & material possessions.
It is true when they say love is blind. It is not blind infatuation/affection that you choose to completely ignore or disregard the cons of a person. Rather, it is the overwhelming love that engulfs you, that you instead accept the cons and flaws of a person that it's not even an issue to begin with at all. You end up loving the person selflessly and wholeheartedly that you rejoice in the pros & accept or challenge the cons to be transformed into pros.
Therefore, it is also true about "The Secret". To be loved, you must first love. To attract good things and positivity, you must first be positive and do good deeds. To have someone date you, you must first change to be someone you would be willing to date yourself. Remember karma; do good & good will be done unto you, do harm & harm will in turn come upon you.
So before you pick the speck outta your neighbor's eye, pick the log outta your own eye first. Learn to love yourself first and foremost, before you attempt to love anyone else or before you allow anyone else to love you. After all, how would you know what love is if you haven't discovered it for yourself. Confidence is the key. Have Faith. Let go & let God.
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