Late Night Ramblings

Again and again, like a broken record in my head.
This time and that time, never forgetting what had happened.
You and you were all it took, crushed and destroyed any being that I had.
This one and that one, keep on falling in the trap.
The cycle repeats, to break away never is a true and given fact.
Now this had happened, my life forever set.
Runaway Runaway from the Rabbit's hole today.
Don't chase the dark shadows, you'll fall even deeper.
It's always the rise and fall, wonder if I'd survive at all.
Ungrateful is my name, self-destruction is my game.
Forgiveness i seek, time and time again.
Never complete, always missing a single piece.
God takes me back over and over again, all i feel is so ashamed.
Unworthy is what i hear all day, all the smack about me they have to say.
I'm hanging on, I'm holding on.
Pull myself together, the best way that I can
I live a life so tainted, a scarlet letter scars my chest
I live not for me, but for those around me be
I can be anyone you want me to be
I can do anything you want me to do
All the things except who's truly me
I don't know, I live a lie each day
Am I really living or going thru the motions?
I love, oh how I love
I love with all my heart, I love unconditionally
It'll simply tear me apart, the love i have inside me
I'd do anything, I'd be anyone
But i cannot be me.

.idonotlikethatimrhymingagaincauserhymingisneveragoodsigntome.