Friday, July 31, 2009

butterfly blues

“hey, a pretty little butterfly,” a cute chubby girl about 5 exclaims, grinning excitedly from ear to ear at the sight of the pink and purple hued butterfly resting gently on the tip of the leaf. her stubby little fingers reach out to grasp it, just as it flitters out of her reach. “oh no, come back! i just want to see your colorful wings, won’t you come back?” she starts chasing it around, her pigtails blowing out behind her, while big dollops of tears start splashing down her cheeks.

in her attempts to chase that dainty butterfly, she had tripped over several uneven grounds, bruising her knees in the process and her elbows too-when she tried breaking her fall. her pretty white and yellow paisley printed dress was soon white and yellow no more, but brown, caked with mud. her shiny new black shoes were now dull and dirty. as she ran around looking determinedly for that butterfly, tired, wiping the sweat off her brow, streaking her face with mud while doing so.

she finally gave up and fell in a huff onto the ground, still sobbing. when all of a sudden she wiped her tears and had a sudden renewed determination, “i will find you one day pretty little butterfly! i know i will! not today perhaps, but another day.”

she left that day, putting the butterfly behind her.

a few years had passed since that quirky day. now as that same girl strolled through the same spot as she did few years back, a flurry of pink flitted past the corner of her eyes. “hey, a pretty little butterfly,” she exclaims, her eyes in search of it. could it be the same one? she thought. as soon as her eyes found its target, she zoomed in on it, and “Gotcha!”, she caught it in between her palms. happy that she could finally look at the butterfly which evaded her grasp years before, she peeked in to have a look “oh no! there’s nothing there, but i did catch it! i know i did!” she couldn’t take it anymore, she had to let go of this butterfly nonsense, she turned away dejectedly. but wait! she couldn’t believe her luck, to her surprise, the most beautiful butterfly landed on the tip of her nose, in all it pink and purple hues right in front of her eyes (literallly!).

there at that moment stood a girl of five, grinning from ear to ear despite her tears to have the butterfly she sought so hard for to have found her.

 

silly story…i was feeling blue…

Saturday, July 25, 2009

quick sneak preview update

i’ve been crazy busy with work everyday!
been working from 9-6 plus,
which explains my sheer exhaustion when i come home
which then explains my absence in blogposts =P

not that anyone reads anyway..

on other matters
mum had a minor scare that day,
bro is down with terrible throat and fever,
thank God dad is his usual self.

other than that,
absolutamente nada..
nothing interesting at all has been happening..
sad case eh?

hey you (yes you!)
*though you’ve no net connection and will probably never ever read this*

you’ve been nothing but nice to me all week. wonder what did i do to deserve all that? =) whatever the reason, im loving every second of it.

but i have a dreadful feeling that this is all too good to be true. and it’ll all come crashing down one day.

will i be ready when that day comes? =(

Monday, July 13, 2009

Reasons for M.I.A.

i have been busy busy busy
just the way i like it
so it’ll keep my mind off certain “things/person

lets see the timeline, shall we?

  1. wednesday 8th July 2009
    • my exams are O-V-E-R ! *relief and happiness ensues*
  2. thursday 9th July 2009
    • Sunway Lagoon =)
      • fun fun fun!
      • people: Asha, Kim, Karen, Andrew, Pat R., Navina, Karl
        time: 11 onwards until 5plus6
      • classic moment: Water Racesunwaylagoon09 (39)
    • MOS
      • people: Brennan, Karen, Kim, Pat R., Tasha, Pam, Ro & a few of Pam’s friends as well as Kim’s friends
        time: 9pm (to avoid cover charge) – 2am
        atmospshere: not so good =( music turned into trance, dance floor was packed as hell
      • classic moment: “wet splashesmosjuly09 (11)
    • Karen stayed over after
  3. friday 10th July 2009
    • rock climbing - basic wall course
      • people: Kevin, Aaron, Vanessa
        time: 2pm onwards until approximately 5pm plus
      • classic moment: cute girl in the bathroomPicture0029
  4. Saturday 11th July 2009
    • movie with the girls
      • people: Karen W. & the two kids, Kimberly & Kaylyn
        movie: Night at the Museum 2
      • classic moment: makeup counters
        colorsplash (4)
  5. Sunday 12th July 2009
    • Bible Sunday @ Sunday School
      • made Bible story bookmarks
    • shopping with the girlfriends
      • people: Karen & Chloe
        place: everywhere in One Utama
        time: 1pm onwards until approximately 8pm plus
      • we managed to get several people’s presents
      • we had a great lunch at TGIF
      • classic moment: purchases at Guardian oujuly09 (16)

so yes, that is the highlight of my weekend
loved every second of it =)

i only wish you could’ve joined in
or maybe it was better off this way?

Monday, July 6, 2009

here we go again

she’s done it again
before its even begun
i wonder why she does it
set impossible times to meet

ive assured her from every angle
that with friends i only mingle
i tell the list of those who are going
i tell her what we’re doing
i tell her where we are
i tell her we won’t be far

she used to say don’t drink and drive
now on my friend’s transport i survive
she used to say don’t drink too much
now i only have one or two drinks as such
she used to say tell me all the details
i tell her all and everything it entails

yet nothing is ever enough
she still makes things rough
Cutting back on precious time
Under boundaries which are not fine
Realistic? its also not
For over it, countless times we’ve fought
Every time i try to assure her
Without a doubt, id end up in tears

why must she be so ridiculous?
when will i ever get my freedom?
im nearing 21 damnit!
i tell her the entire truth and plans of mine
i don’t lie or sneak out
whats wrong with coming back late each time i go out?
i don’t go every freaking day, do i?
just once in awhile!!
plus now, its right after finals
i feel stressed as it is
all i ask is for a night to relax
just because we’ve got visitors
pretentiousness that im good gets us nowhere!
im who i am!
im a good daughter when everything else is concern
all i ask is for no curfews the few times i go out late
is that SO much to ask?!
especially when i have trustworthy friends
who has done more for me then she’ll ever know!
GOSH! THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!

no, you’re not helping either
i hate letting you make my life miserable too

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Distracting distractions

what do i spend most of my time doing?
instead of studying,
i am…

  1. become a typing maniac!

  2. addicted as a twitterer!

  3. blogging about nonsensical unimportant stuff..

  4. day dreaming about post exam plans
  5. thinking about… the unrequited lover..sigh

Im a GONER!

concentrate Mandy, concentrate!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

sole lover

have you really fallen in love?
can’t stop thinking about your loved one?
all you want, crave and desire is your loved one?
just to feel your loved one touch you ever so lovingly?
secretly knowing that your loved one makes you look good?
and it makes you feel so good knowing they’re yours?

I’ve fallen in l-o-v-e!
not with ONE, but TWO…

with these gorgeous gorgeous heels!
(but i stil don’t own them =( )



Guess Jenda heels
(i call it Barbie heels- SO PRETTTY!)

 
ALDO Slagel heels
(steady lovely sexy Gladiator-like heels)

Someone get them for me!! ask me for my size! lol…
really really love them la!
i’ve never felt so strongly for heels before
as i have for these two pairs…sigh