The magic of five.

you know how some things just dont seem to fit? just when you saw that glimmer of hope, it just vanishes before you very eyes? and you’re back to thinking, oh well, “ain’t that a surprise..” while rolling your eyes. so you don’t bother, you put it out of your mind, trying positive thinking and just moving on. after all, one too many disappointments, one more is not going to make a difference.

and then the day just flies by, you’re having fun. you’re catching up, you’re laughing. all the while, the wriggling thought is inching its way back to your conscious mind. yes, the thought is nice indeed. you hear a voice, but you can’t make out what you hear. “hello! back to Earth?! wipe that silly grin off your face, wont you? you look like a monkey.” you snap back to reality. then the bubbles froth up! bursts of happiness just radiates through you. and oh gosh, you would tell yourself, “now ain’t this nice?” in some Country drawl? knowing, in fact, certain to yourself. no way is there hope. and once again, just push it out of your mind.

Ah-Hah! guess the world decided to grab your ankles and turn you upside down. a blurry frenzy, the blood rushes to your brain, you can’t think straight. everything’s set on fast forward speed. and several very long fast forwarded moments and plenty of blushing later, it all just bubbles over. one huge frothy mix of swirly bright colorful lights. and you’ve got yourself magic!

after all the pushing away and the frantic hurry, you’re now wishing and willing it ever to be slowed down, for time to stand still. everything seemed too good to be true, but wow! was it great! was it great indeed! and that’s when you realize, hope weaves it way in not the biggest of signs but the simplest of gestures. hope is magic waiting to be unleashed. so tonight, i found my own kind of magic. even if im still skeptical about hope. the tiny wriggling worm still roams free.

cheeks are starting to hurt,
this is a very good sign indeed,
i really dont care how it goes,
all i know is im happy again.

thank you for showing me magic.