Xiào

despite how im feeling
i choose not to express
words are better left unsaid
to keep up appearances

i try my best to be calm
taking it all in
spewing none in return
its not easy to do
but i do it anyway
in turn of respect to you

you may think me rude
for being so abrupt
but i think i deserve
this once chance
to be able to express
at least this way
and not say the things i wish to

i dont know how to get to you
i dont think i ever will
i just hope i can stay patient
until i get away
cause you’re definitely
not gonna see the light of day

i love you
but i hate feeling like this.