Terrible twos

bloody thesis, why can’t you be that someone?
make life easier for me, wont you? =( 

she put herself out on the line
thinking everything would be just fine
that’s the trouble with one step stumbling
from then on its downward falling
told herself never again after the last
yet sculpting now the very same cast
she shouldn’t have let it run its course
should’ve nipped in the bud before the remorse
now its too late to do anything
just bear it and just grin
of freedom she seeks
of headaches she weeps
messing with her head is never a good thing
she’ll lose it all again, losing its very meaning
if only to close her eyes and escape
hear nothing and feel cool breeze on her nape
she can’t wait until this is over
then she’d be done with it forever
yet to harbor such hope about
that it’ll eventually work out
messed up child never learns
of forbidden things she yearns

for the love of the double edged sword =)