i had someone once describe myself to me
every description fit me perfectly
spoke of things that i didn't even realize about myself
caught me off-guard by how true those words were
at that precise moment
i wonder to myself
in this unbelievable moment
does this person really truly indeed understand me?
a soul mate who knows me better than you know myself?!
or...
have i heard what was said
so many times
over and over
so much so
that i start to believe it myself?
even if its not true of me?\
The questions i ask are:
- Is this truly the ONE for me? the one who understands me perfectly? the one I'm destined to be with?
- -OR- has this person conditioned me to what the person wanted me to be? someone completely not me?
I hate myself when i question myself like this
it just shows how much i dont know myself
SIGH...
you,my dear,are your own person.No matter how much others want to condition you or turn you into a typical stereotype,you my girl,will always be that person you were meant to be. Sometimes it's hard to see your ownself when your glasses are so clouded and not sure where to look,but trust me girl,you'll see if you dive deep enough,deep in your heart.Try to take time off and delve into yourself...
ReplyDeletetake care girl..love you and miss you lotz.....*hugs and kisses*
thats what im trying to do now =) just pulling myself together bit by bit.. finding pieces of what makes me here and there.. hopefully i'l fit together this whole puzzle of me one day eh?
ReplyDeletemissing you so much!! come back soon k?! and make sure you visit me! hehe
girl,it's gonna be helluva frustrating sometimes,piecing yourself together,but trust,somehow,you will fit together the whole puzzle. I'm saying that because i managed to fix a part of my whole big puzzle and I cannot stop kicking myself for not seeing the obvious before this.just take it step by step...=)
ReplyDeletebtw,i'll be back on the 26th of feb. I duno why but the days seemed to have stopped moving. I have literally been counting the days!!and i PROMISE i will visit you...hehe..