Faith, Hope, Love

All the scars
The bitterness
All the pain i held inside
The numbness that i nursed
I thought I'd gone forever

The black and white
The monochrome
The me I've long kept hidden

Then you came along
Gave colour in my life
Ironic how thats what you said

Where things have died
You brought it back to life

I didnt think i could love again
I didnt think I was worth that loving
What i thought was bad and ugly
You showed me the beauty of it
Made it love instead of that

You gave me hope
To love again
then you gave me
the greatest of it all
my Faith

The irony.
The bittersweet.

what you gave
you took it all
a taste of almost perfection
became complete isolation

try as i might
i'll never forget
for it will always be
a part of me 

now thats what you get
for getting Faith, hope & love.

except this time,
I'm clinging onto my Faith
and putting my hopes up
to one day love the same way again

i guess ive got to thank you for that

*post dedicated to Chloe Syg for pointing it out to me =)*

Past begone, the now begin!

Who am I kidding? I'm not strong enough to be so foolish again. This is not what I'm seeking for, this is not who I want to be. I've come this far with whatever I have left in me, I refuse to fall again and be left with nothing.

No matter how much I deceive myself, I am not okay with it. I've hurt too many people already, I've hurt myself too much already. This time, I'm not falling again.

I won't be that girl anymore. I won't give in anymore. I won't play along anymore. No matter how weak I might end up, I will be stronger and overcome.

My guess was wrong before & perhaps I may be wrong again now, but I'm safer thinking this way. This is the price I pay, this is my ultimate wish fulfilled. No matter how superficial things were, it was real to me and perhaps the closest to real that I may ever get. Now I move on with a piece of the real I had, and be happy no matter the circumstance.

I will be strong this time around! If not for me, for her! I have more in me than I give myself credit for and I will take pride in it! In me!

This time, I'm standing up for myself!