#29/06: Soft

The blanket that I sewed for her

Rapunzel Dreams

You know your hair is long when:

1. You feel like you've got a dog across your face as you turn in your sleep.
2. You gather your hair to the side of your neck, only to have a few strands or the tip still stuck at the other end of your neck.
3. You loosen your hair from a bun only to get it knotted up.
4. You are tickled when you wear a backless top.
5. Drying your hair takes forever
6. You get a random tickle on your cheek because the hair that is resting on your nape tickles you.
7. Braiding seems to take forever and your fingers start to tire.
8. If you flip your hair behind you, you might actually slap someone.
9. Changing clothes gets difficult because your hair gets tangled in  the clothes.
10. Split ends terrorize the tips.

After all that is said, I still love the length of my hair now =) Proof that I'm emotionally strong enough not to chop it off. Next thing on the list? Crazy DYE! *grins*

#26/06: Where You Shop

Where I get most of my clothes =)
Only worth buying when on sale.

#25/06: Something Cute

Baby Me =P

Currently Not So Smart

So my Blackberry decided to die on me. I was prompted to upgrade an app on my phone, which I did. It then prompted me to reboot my phone to make the changes possible, which I also did. It was then when it decided to leave me hanging by freezing halfway through the startup screen. I tried to do a battery pull a gazillion times but to no avail. The phone mocked me by freezing at the same spot.

I had never realize how much I depended on my phone or how convenient it was for myself. It has only been one day and I'm already having withdrawal symptoms. Its so hard to wake up because I dont have the alarm buzzing on my phone. I can't snooze either because once again, i don't have my phone to snooze to. I can no longer wake up to read my "morning paper" of new tweets on Twitter. I can no longer Whatsapp my friends, and having to go back to 9digits keypad instead of my QWERTY is a pain =( As much as I love texting instead of calling, I think chatting still wins me over. it is so easy by chat!

I usually check my phone if i need to know the time. I usually check Twitter or Facebook if I'm bored or restless. Locations or directions are usually at my fingertips. If I need to show Mum something, its as easy as a click away on the camera. With my phone, I am able to accomplish daily taking of photos plus daily blogging. I can get instant updates through my emails. I miss the red light flashing on my phone. I get to chat with my girlfriends as well as those who are overseas for a minimal to barely any cost.

Long story short, I want my phone fixed ASAP! Or I need to get a replacement ASAP too! =( Question is Blackberry or IPhone? =S

#23/06: Movement

My Precious <3

#22/06: From A High Angle

Good Hair Day =)

#16/06: Out and About

Esprit Sale for 3Days only, so I bought a top & shorts yesterday & bought 2 tops today =) We went to One Utama yesterday & Mid Valley today.

The picture on the left was a bra top that I liked but didn't end up getting. I did however get the top in the picture on the right.

#15/06: Yellow

Fishtail Braid

Random Phone Call

*I know you don't read my blog, so its safe to rant =P*

It keeps playing on my mind. The conversation that took me by surprise the other day. You seem so shocked that I didn't recognize your number, thus implying that I had deleted off your number. Let's rewind a year back before I did my disappearing act. You told me to forget it & move on & so I did. I thought you meant to cut contact with you as well thus any connection whatsoever, be it social media connection or mutual friends, I severed it. I admit, I was an information leech at that time, sucking whatever I could. But now, I'd rather be out of the loop. I hope you're not making me a fool by saying the things you did, I really can handle the truth & won't push you for anything. I'm way past that now, I have other people's interest to keep. I just hope you understand both points of view before getting disappointed in me for doing what I did & thus causing what I did after. If what you said is true, then I'm really sorry it turned out the way it did for you but its out of my hands. Some can't handle the truth like me, but then again what do I know. I guess some questions will forever be unanswered. While I can't source information on my side, I hope no information is fed to the other side either. I just don't think it deserves to be leaked, no matter the reason. While sometimes, I do wish I had some sort of contact, other times, I'm glad I don't. So hey, if you're genuine in the things you said, don't be a stranger & keep in touch okay? Cause you're cool. All the best!

PS: Not who everyone thinks it is =P

#13/06: Art

Konad Nail Art

inspired by: glitterM

#10/06: Best Bit of Your Weekend

50 Shades

Denying Reality

I can't lie, I won't lie, it still hurts, it still stings, it still burns. The memories sear thru my mind, and I'm still longing deep inside. Its so frustrating not to know, yet with the same frustration, I'm pushing it all away. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to get angry behind all these tears. The ache resonates in my heart, the hollow aching to be filled. If only I didn't feel the way I felt, then things wouldn't be so hard. Some days get so tough, the memories make it rough. Some days I can't sit still, I want to unlease my inner rage, other days I want to blank out & numb myself, forgetting everything. My pride holds me together that I will never confess or speak of in public again. I gave all my trust, thinking, hoping I'd found the exception instead of the rule. How foolish I am, how foolish indeed. Goodnight all.

Grey Steele Inspiration

I am intrigued, yes I am. Everything is all too familiar, it both amuses me yet it stings too. The battle I thought long forgotten and buried, now resurrected within my mind. I am thankful that nothing turns into reality, that these are just fantasies of created memories replaying in my mind, haunting me from the back of my mind. Yet, a part of me longs for the realization of such things. The curiosity is killing the cat.

Everything speak volumes to me, heightening every inch of my skin. I don't know if I should smirk & laugh, or to be ashamed that I am more than fully aware of these things. My mind betrays me & leads me to dark forbidden places. The guilt follows closely behind (Hah! pun unintended, sorry, joke within myself).

Ironic how the very thing that hurts me is also the very thing that molded me, the very thing that empowers me is also the very thing that shreds me apart. I am both frightened and ignited by the same thing. The push and the pull beckons to me, a tiring battle that both frustrates me & sparks my determination. Both the greatest sense of control & accomplishment is also the greatest sense of helplessness & weakness.

How easily I notice the signs, how easily I respond, how easily to slip. Yet, I am utterly stubborn, determined & resolute not to give in. It takes great effort to shut off a radar that comes so naturally to me. I want nothing more & can settle for something like this, or so I think, perhaps I am weak & in need of something much more. After all, most of our actions are dictated by our emotions & how does one function without emotions getting involved?

*i fell asleep* Goodness, the things that go through my mind just before I sleep. Oh well. Fancy read eh? =P

#07/06: Drink

A chocolate craving satisfied =)

#06/06: Hat

Lace Braid & Tuck

Since I don't usually wear hats & didnt come across any during this week, i offer you another hairstyle instead =)

#05/06: Sign

Just so you know, I'd usually buy my contacts at a Buy 2 Free 1 deal, where its priced at RM60/box. So when I found this shop in Paradigm that sold the contacts at RM33/box, I just had to buy them. I told them I wouldn't mind 3 boxes & to see what colors they had in my power. She came out with 3 boxes, saying they were the last 3 in my specific power. The best part is the colors were exactly the colors I'd usually go for.

Therefore, this is a SIGN that I had to get them =) Yayy!

It is Never Satisfied

So it stands in the corner, on the outside looking in at everyone and everything. It wonders where it would fit in? Amidst the jokes, giggles and laughter? Amidst the pretenses, coverups and plastered smiles? It looks perfectly intact from the outside, but truly, rotting from within. For years and years, the infestation grew. Every now and then, the ointment applied, but never really went away, just slowed down in its pace. A seemingly brave broken soul to everyone else's eyes, when in fact, a shameful disgusting monster whose thoughts brood foul. It can never live up to expectations, never be good enough in anyone else's eyes, except perhaps God's, but even so, things were doubtful & shameful. It never had no common sense, even if it did, no one would believe such a thing. It never had a voice of its own, always silenced by everyone else & keeping in line with traditional values. It is always ridiculed and mocked for being another brainless Frankenstein. It never could stand up for itself, brought down & kept down by past monsters that entrapped it. It always sought for trouble in all the wrong places, screwed up in all the right places. It hurt so much but never spoke a word. Tumble after tumble, the never ending tidal waves keep crashing it down underwater. Will it ever pull through? Will it ever feel proud of itself or find something to be proud of? Will it ever be good enough? Will it ever be worthy? It festers, it boils, it brews, but it never overspills. It burns itself from within, and sometimes, the ones that come near it ill get singed too. In other words, stay away from it. I guess everyone got the message loud and clear. Lost is the new old word, it can never fit in.

#04/06: Close-Up

A close up of my Sabo charms =)

if you look closely, you can notice my latest addition in between the lipstick charm & the Barbie heart charm *grins*

PS: excuse the awkward leg =P

#03/06: On Your Plate

Beef Bolognaise Pasta from Plan B at Paradigm Mall with Evie, Steph, Karen, Bunny & myself =) Yum!

#02/06: Empty

The bottom of my Starbucks Java Chip Frappucino =) they didn't add the crushed choc chips so I added my own at home =P yum!