of purple stars
and black writings
on canvases of silver
of purple tulle
and black satin
with layers aplenty
of zips
and ribbons
with shiny stones
of deep purple
and lilacs of paper
im bruised
all over my skin
to the cores of my heart
and im lovin’ it!
i miss you.
i still do.
i actually wrote a long post dissing you
for my own selfish reasons
throwing out my dissatisfaction against you
but then i thought again
its not your battle to get involved with
its mine, my own with my feelings for you
so i should sort it out myself without involving you
after all, its no one else’s choice but mine right?
so i decided to post it on my personal blog instead
yes, i daresay i love you
too bad fairytales are just that- tales.
Note: Photos you’re about to see are NOT mine,
credit goes to the respective owners.
should i go auburn red?
or copper brown?
or what color would you suggest?
should i get highlights?
or make it gradient?
im thinking “scene hair” colors =)
the pictures above are a few styles i like…which do you think would suit me best?? i really need opinions here!! =(
my current hair: 
*boring!*
Note: Photos you’re about to see are NOT mine,
credit goes to the respective owners.
should i go auburn red?
or copper brown?
or what color would you suggest?
should i get highlights?
or make it gradient?
im thinking “scene hair” colors =)
the pictures above are a few styles i like…which do you think would suit me best?? i really need opinions here!! =(
my current hair:
*boring!*
take a look at her
what do you see?
who do you see?
the clothes she wears?
the shortest of skirts?
the tightest of tops?
the highest of heels?
the heaviest of makeups?
the things she says?
the cusses she uses?
the diva talk?
the whispers she makes?
the flirt in her?
where her hands are?
the way her body leans?
the look in her eyes?
the scent of her perfume?
do you see the biatch i see?
or do you see the other side?
the desperation in her eyes?
the emptiness in her talk?
the limp as she walks?
the shyness in her gestures?
the mask she puts on?
the walls she puts up?
the hands she holds out?
the plea in her voice?
look closer,
you might just see
the inner her.
i just need you to hold me,
is that too much to ask for?
apparently so.
Your date of conception was on or about 14 December 1987 which was a Monday.
You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Virgo.
Your Life path number is 4.
Your fortune cookie reads:
You will spend old age in comfort and material wealth.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447409.5.
The golden number for 1988 is 13.
The epact number for 1988 is 11.
The year 1988 was a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Bear; your plant is Violets.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Hathys, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 23 Elul 5748.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 24 Elul 5748.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.15.6.5 which is 12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 6 uinal 5 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 23 Muharram 1409 (1409-1-23).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 3 April 1988.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 10 April 1988.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 17 February 1988.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 22 May 1988.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 29 May 1988.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 12 September 1988.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 2 April 1988.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 16 February 1988.
As of 8/8/2009 6:02:29 AM EDT
You are 20 years old.
You are 251 months old.
You are 1,091 weeks old.
You are 7,642 days old.
You are 183,414 hours old.
You are 11,004,842 minutes old.
You are 660,290,549 seconds old.
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Rose McGowan (1973)
Dweezil Zappa (1969)
Cathy Guisewite (1950)
Freddie Mercury (1946)
Loudon Wainwright III (1946)
Raquel Welch (1940)
Carol Lawrence (1934)
Bob Newhart (1929)
John Cage (1912)
Jesse James (1847)
Top songs of 1988
Roll with It by Steve Winwood
Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Poison
One More Try by George Michael
Look Away by Chicago
Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley
Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses
Anything for You by Gloria Estefan & Miami Sound Machine
Get Outta My Dreams, Get into My Car by Billy Ocean
Man In the Mirror by Michael Jackson
The Flame by Cheap Trick
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.99099804305284 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
Your lucky day is Wednesday.
Your lucky number is 5.
Your ruling planet(s) is Mercury.
Your lucky dates are 5th, 14th, 23rd.
Your opposition sign is Pisces.
Your opposition number(s) is 3.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 28 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 21 candles.
Those 21 candles produce 21 BTUs,
or 5,292 calories of heat (that's only 5.2920 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.40 US ounces of water with that many candles. 
In 1988 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1988 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1988 in the US there were 2,389,000 marriages (9.7%) and 1,183,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1988 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1988 the population of Australia was approximately 16,687,082.
In 1988 there were approximately 246,193 births in Australia.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 116,816 marriages and 41,007 divorces.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 119,866 deaths.
Your birth flower is ASTER
Your birthstone is Sapphire
The Mystical properties of Sapphire
Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Sapphire is used for clear thinking.Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Agate, Moonstone, Lapis Lazuli
Weeping Willow, the MelancholyBeautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.
if i were to die tomorrow,
looking back on my life so far,
would i have regretted it?
im guessing maybe,
maybe yes, maybe no.
so what would my final thoughts be?
how would i evaluate my life?
what would i have been thankful for?
what would i have regretted?
what would have been my final wishes?
what would my final words be?
i’d thank God for his blessings
for letting me have this borrowed time
for the chance to have experienced a life in His creation
i’d thank God for my loving family
one that never ever once stopped loving or caring for me
i’d thank God for all the great friends he’s blessed me with
the ones who give me joy and comfort
I’d thank Him also for all the trials and tribulations
just to make me stronger at the end of the day
and to make me trust in Him even more
yes, I’d thank God for this life,
though short, i loved it!
unfortunately my regrets are quite a few
from regrets of not spending more time with loved ones
to not saying things i should’ve, to saying things i shouldn’t,
to all the misdeeds and wrongs i’ve done
unintentionally or otherwise, no one deserves to get hurt
to not living life to the fullest
instead of just lazing around and wasting it away
to not having anything to be proud of
my biggest regret of which would be
not making my mark in this life
to not be able to say i did something
i made a difference
even in the tiniest teensiest of ways.
if i could know when i die
and prepare for it
the last few things i wish to do
would be to say hi and goodbye to every one of my loved ones
or maybe start a blog to say a few things of everyone whom i’ve met
and also go for a long overdue confession
and finish reading the Bible before i go meet Him
so if i die tomorrow,
this is what i’d say:
thank you all who have been a part of my life
big or small, you’ve made an impact, I'm sure of it
live life to the fullest, don’t waste any day
so that when you go,
you go without regrets
of how your life could’ve been
cause you lived it the way you wanted to =)
rest in peace people! =) hehe…
is that all you see me as these days?
im truly disappointed if you say yes.
i have found the perfect dress
it couldn’t come at a more perfect timing too =)
i asked for tulle,
i asked for tube,
i asked for empire cut,
i asked for layered wishy skirt
and i found it in this bruised dress =)
i’ve been playing with the theme
what would be easy to follow?
what would be fun to do?
what would be nice to decorate?
and as though written in the stars
along with the dress,
i found that too =)
any guesses?
and with all that,
i’ve thought of my invites
and party favors
and makeup and accessories to go with too =)
hopefully it turns out
and makes this September a good one for me
*crosses fingers*
now all i have to look for are
the perfect shoes to match =)
remember several posts back?
i said things were too good to be true?
i was right
now, I'm suddenly invisible to you.
